Monday, October 27, 2008

Chill


Merriam Webster dictionary gives two definitions of the word "chill" - 1) a sensation of cold accompanied by shivering 2) a check to enthusiasm or warmth of feeling.

We've had a cold front come through the last few days...and I just love it. There is a chill in the October air that tells me that we're deeper into fall now. In the south, sometimes our warm (hot) air lingers much longer than I would like for it to. So I always welcome the chill of the mornings and evenings about this time of year. I love to snuggle in blankets, sweatshirts and jackets. I get excited when the weather calls for comfort foods like pumpkin bread, apple cake, chili or stew. I like to hold a hot mug of coffee or tea and relax with a book or magazine. When the world "chill" is used to describe a coolness in the weather, it has a positive connotation for me.

But when the word "chill" is used to describe a coolness in a relationship, it has negative meaning. I'm sure you know what I'm talking about - we've all felt it. Something happens in a relationship that causes us to feel distant or uncomfortable. Maybe we know what caused it, maybe we have no clue. But you can "feel" the chill between you and the other person, and it is one of the most unsettling feelings I know. Just today, I asked God to show me areas in which maybe I am responsible for bringing a cooling of relationships with others. I have felt a chill between me and someone else, and my feelings have been wounded. But the Lord has gently turned my line of thinking inward instead of outward. Rather than lick my own wounds, He is showing me that there is room for improvement on my end. Maybe I am the one who needs to work on bringing back the warmth.
So while I am enjoying the recent chill in the air outside, I certainly don't want a chill in the air of my relationships.

I'm realizing that maybe I need to wrap a blanket of love and encouragement around the people in my life.




Thankful and Sad


I write this morning with a thankful yet sad heart. Our oldest daughter, Casie, is in her junior year at UCA and there was a school shooting last night on campus. Two young lives were taken. She is safe - she was home in her apartment when the shooting occurred. I am so thankful that my child was nowhere near the incident. I am thankful she is safe. I am thankful that I still have her to hug and hold. My heart is saddened however, for the lives lost. I am sad for their families. I am sad for the rest of the student body who are grappling with this news.

I spoke with Casie quite a bit last night by phone. There was alot of frustration over lack of news coming out, there was alot of worry over who had been injured, concern over the suspects on the loose. The campus was on lockdown, and one of her friends was texting from the library, unable to leave. It is a scary thing when your world is turned topsy turvy that way.

I had every intention of blogging about the wonderful weekend we had here, but my mind can't get past the shooting at the present. It happened around 9:30 last night, and at the present, it is consuming my thoughts as well as the thoughts of many others.

Casie was extremely touched last night by all the phone calls, texts, and facebook messages she was getting from friends all over who were checking on her. I was touched as well. I don't know if she and her roommate slept last night or not, but I do know that it wouldn't be well received if I called her this early in the morning. As a mom, I just want to talk to her again. I actually want to get in the car and make the drive and just be with her.

I am going to go get my morning cup of coffee and spend some time with the Lord. I am going to thank Him for keeping my child safe. I am going to thank Him that more students were not shot. I am going to ask Him to comfort the families of the victims and all who have been effected by senseless act of violence. I am going to ask that the person(s) responsible for this act are caught soon so that the lockdown will be lifted. I don't know how long it will take for Casie and the others to feel safe again.

Please keep them in your prayers.