I have to admit, that I'm an HGTV junkie. Sometimes I can't get enough of the channel...watching shows on landscaping, decorating, remodeling, crafting, etc. And I'm an HGTV dreamer...I dream more about tackling those kinds of projects instead of actually doing them.
The other day I was watching a show that featured everyday people and the arts/crafts that they enjoy doing. A glass blower was featured, and it was really fascinating. He would could transform this nondescript (sometimes ugly) glob of goo into the most beautiful piece of glass artwork. The process included banging, stretching, spinning, firing....all sorts of activity that seemed extremely painful for the object.
I began to think of my own life. I am in the middle of a transformation of sorts....God has taken this rather nondescript soul and has really stretched and spun me as of late. The banging and firing....the really painful part....seems to be more at the hands of myself and others instead of God, and yet, just as the glass blower controls the object during those processes, I have felt God's hand on me throughout all of my pain....and I know He's in control. Just when I think I can't take another blow, I feel Him touching me....and I know that He is at work....and I know that He wants to take me and help me see that I am beautiful, and that He is molding my life into the kind of life He has chosen for me.
Lately, I've wanted to scream "Get me out of the fire"....I'm weary of the painful part of the process. He hasn't got me out, but He has given me rest. And He allows me to see just enough to know that He is in control. The challenge for me is to live with that knowledge that He is in control, and not to let circumstances or relationships control me.
My prayer for today is that I will be willing and compliant as God transforms this life into something beautiful. I want to remember as I'm being spun, hit, stretched and fired that He is the one controlling it all, and He knows what is best. And I want to praise Him now for the outcome, whatever it may be.
